Malandi raw ako. Yan ang sabi ng aking mga kaibigan sa tuwing nagbibiruan kami. Sabi ko, hindi naman, kapag may isa naman na sa akin e doon lang ako. So siyempre, they won't stop teasing me and I have to defend myself. Sabi ko sa kanila, kapag may isa naman ako e doon lang ako at wala nang iba. Ang problema kasi, I can't claim. Hindi ko masabing sa akin siya at sa kanya ako. There's always this thin line that doesn't allow me to be in a REALationship.
I like this guy and that one, too and the other one. Someone may like me, too, but the question is, where's the assurance? I promise myself to not let myself be stuck with someone who's not even with me. Not again. The long wait, the unthinkable pain and all those shits that fuck my life are over. So there. When I am happy, I am happy whether it is because of the same guy or not.
What's wrong with the world? When I focus on one guy, people will say na tanga ako and that I have to entertain others and when I do, malandi ako. Fuckery. Assurance. I need an assurance to stop me from being stupid and being flirt. Is it too much too ask? I'm sorry, but I'm going to lift my own chair. I think I'll be a good girlfriend. I think I'll make a great role of being a partner. Feeling ko, masarap akong karelasyon. How will I ever know if I am not there? How will I ever try when all the assholes are out there looking for some pieces of shit and not one of them even give me a chance to try?
I will go out with guys until someone stop me from seeing another. I will kiss who I want to until someone hug me and tell me that my kisses are all he wanted and will long for. I will be free until someone secures me.
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