I know that what I am going through right now is my fault and I have to take responsibility for that. As much as I want to blame someone or something else, I just can’t, I have no right, and I won’t. I just want to go and sink myself into those dreams I created when I was younger. Anyhow, those were the things that took me farther. I have to fill my heart and mind again with those old good things and be numb. I will let them take me some place else for the next moment or maybe even just for tonight when I have nothing to do but to lay down here and think (because I’m sick). Let me forget that I have left myself open in the world full of judgments and criticisms. Let me forget that I am blind. I come to find the light and make visions once again.